“Receive the children in reverence, educate them in love, and send them forth in freedom." ~Rudolf Steiner
The Birth-Story in a nutshell: It was in preparing for the Spring Equinox Rite when she entered my aura. Her name: Ultra-Violet Archer, came in a dream series of 3: In the first - 3 months before I knew I was enceinte - I saw a little girl with red-black hair & blue eyes, standing between a wall of water & a wall of fire. Her name was Violet. Then 3 months later, after I knew I was with child; she came again this time as an older boy, his back turned, so that he was facing the wall of water & the wall of fire. When he turned, I saw he had blond hair & blue eyes - I knew his name was Archer. I was almost 39 years old. The Hermetic Order I was working with made me the honorary Lady of the Sacred Land that year. I was exalted. I thought, O - WOW. Perhaps thru the birthing experience I can heal my Mother Wound. The bio donor said NO – & proceeded to demonize Mother & Child. The Community of my Hermetic Order held me in my gestation. Sprung from a childhood of incest & unrest; & because I had always seen myself as a Crone wannabee - the Temple my only home - there was no room in my world-view, or in my life cirrcumstance for family, no white picket fences were on the horizon. So, I searched & found a beautiful young family who wanted to adopt her – The plan was that I would pump milk & be the fairy god-mother. Surrounded by doulas, I found a midwife & planned a home birth. I was the Fertility Goddess incarnate, beaming radiance – the first & last time in this body that I had a true sense of well-being. But at 8 months along, the baby was breech. I tried all the holistic modalities to get her to turn, to no avail. Then Papillion, a member of our Order, destined to become one of her 3 God-fathers, suggested I go see a Babaaláwo he had just had a divination with. (He didn’t mention at the time that a pregnant woman in trouble had come up in his reading.) I don’t go in for that sort of thing, being the Rosicrucian that I am, but I thought, well, I have tried everything else, maybe he can spark an insight on how to get the baby to turn – So I went. The IFA Priest threw the cowrie shells & the prophesy said: ‘The child you carry has a special destiny. Her Name will be Known like the Sun; but you must be her Mother’. I said, ‘O well, I’m going to have an open adoption, so I’ll be able to see her all the time’. But he said no, I needed to be her Mother all the way. He pointed to the shells scattered on the rug & went on: ‘There are adversarial forces trying to keep her out of incarnation, so either you, or her ,will die in childbirth’.
With my head spinning, & my heart ringing, I went home that day pondering for the first time actually taking on the full task of Motherhood. Sfter 3 days, I woke up with the 3rd piece of the dream series, (too long to recount here) & knew her name was Ultra-Violet. The decision made, my Hermetic Community rallied around us. I was given everything a new Mother could ever need. We did much prayer & ritual to counteract the forewarning. But she never did turn. She was born butt-first on the Full Beaver Moon 11/22/99 at 9:44 pm. Her Apgar score was perfect. All was well. Prophesy averted we all shouted! Then an hour later she just stopped breathing. They took her away - rushed her off to intensive care. Ok so, I had chosen to be a Mother, & what - now at the birth, my baby dies - or is brain damaged from lack of oxygen? And so it was that she took the hit. More prayer & ritual. The doctors never knew what happened; so, after 3 days, against hospital orders, I took my baby home. It was Thanksgiving day 1999.
She started talking early, although being phlegmatic by nature, or perhaps because of her traumatic birth, walking & other motor skills came late. One of the first stories she told when she was around 2 years old, was about how her Angel called her back over the Rainbow Bridge on her Birth Day because she forgot one of her colors. We call her Twice born. Blessings dear Ultra-Violet on this your Quarter Century B-Day! ~MOM XOX
A poem for my daughter on her 25th Birthday Reach for the story - as you walk in the legend…May you meet yourself, in every tree & rock - quickened by tendrils of light...Holy & perfect is the search - which lives by fire in the embrace of spirit...Awaken as your deeds spark flames - like a Sun Flower remembered by a lover... The cork has been lifted from the unguent jar - O cascade of Genesis perfumed - the past has been written, rolled & sealed, & the future is a Hawks-eye, ranging the sky unblinking - Open. Shut. Perfect... From our own bodies we give - birth to all time & its seasons - look now with new eyes & see the wise star within...& All-Ways Re-Member. You are the mud - between the toes of the Beloved...May She make of you a poultice for the healing, that from the commingling, the lotus may take root - a strong foundation for the blossoming... Blessings on your Quarter Century Journey into Wholeness ~MOM XOX And if you are in town Come out TONIGHT:
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Friday, 22 November 2024
Twice Born
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