There was something about this morning's prompt that kept going with me. Mainly, it was this sense of a great deluge arriving to a previously dry place, and the consequent flooding that could threaten delicate balances. It was a question about GREAT NEWS, but there was danger in it.
Toward the end of my post, I scratched the surface of imagining an enormous spiritual occurrence within humanity that would order all wrongs aright, which reminded me of times when I indeed allowed so-called spiritual channels to flow freely at the expense of other, more mundane expressions. Over time one learns that opening a little at a time and letting the the ground adjust and absorb, is more sustainable, but in my case it isn't that I made a decision. It did seem to mitigate itself. There's inherent wisdom at play.
If someone would have said to me then, that in ten years I'd rather have evenness at the cost of high highs, I wouldn't have believed them. I would have equated that with mediocrity. And once in a while I do still think this way, wanting intense motivation or stamina in order to get through something and not look back. Maybe that's okay. Goodness knows my caffeine habits suggest I still believe in artificial energy to some extent. 🙂
So it seems to fit that the greatest joy I can imagine is not getting everything I want, or those I love getting everything they want. It's there being enough, and being fully part of that. And I do think there is enough. I think it's hindered by ignorance of various sorts, which breeds fear and hoarding. In me too, as a microcosm.
So, equanimity.
No comments:
Post a Comment