It's time to come clean. I haven't been devoting enough time to an important piece of my life and identity. I haven't been scheduling--and honoring--a critical creative need: uninterrupted time to write.
Like an untuned car with dirty spark plugs, this sputtering connection--between me and my creative self--has been misfiring for about a year.
Though I have produced creative things (like a few librettos for my chorus and a blogpost once each week), I haven't been protecting my creative time. I haven't been developing enough ideas that are purely mine.
It's time to take action. To go back to school. To open the metaphorical hood of this mid-century car. To do something about it.
I know this is a challenge for all writers ... and I'm luckier than most. I'm not juggling a full-time job at this stage of my life.
Still, external forces and demands often flood through the door--disrupting my good writing intentions. (Even as I began to write this, a sprinkler head outside our front door just went haywire. I texted one of our condo board members to tell him a fountain of water is spraying everywhere!)
I'm back to the keyboard of my writing universe. Beyond the whack-a-mole geysers that pop up in every life, it's time I became more selective and vigilant with how I choose to spend my time.
It's time for me to find a better balance again. To be more attentive to my own creative needs (like I did when I wrote and published four memoirs and one book of poetry from 2016 to 2023) ... while still taking some time to help others.
Today I began by scheduling two hours--between 10 a.m. and noon--to write this blog post about the writing process.
Tomorrow, I have another two hours on my calendar. Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday will be the same.
Perhaps it is fitting that I'm treating myself like a misaligned student, who needs guidance from the teacher in me. Because this fall I will be leading a three-part "Meaningful Memoirs Matter" writing workshop for up to eight students at the Scottsdale Public Library.
I'm excited about the opportunity to teach again. (In the early 2000s, I taught the fundamentals of public relations as an adjunct instructor for Roosevelt University in Chicago.)
I think this 2024 experience will be more fulfilling on a personal level than the communication courses I led more than twenty years ago.
I genuinely want to help aspiring writers in my community tell their own stories. I want to tell them they don't have to be celebrities to do it.
Extraordinary things happen to all of us. Important stuff flies under the radar in our everyday lives.
Just as important, I want to share my passion for the memoir art form and set this small group of individuals on a path to discover and unearth their own voices.
Back to scheduling. One of the things I will tell my students is that writing is a discipline. It requires solitude, time, dedication, energy, and--of course--passion.
But if you start small and string enough hours, days, weeks, and months of devoted and affirming writing sessions together--with time--the misfiring or underutilized writing jalopy can become a well-oiled machine.
Simply writing this is helping me get my creative energy back.
It's time for me to practice what I will preach. To nurture the most important pieces of who I am ... the writer, the storyteller, the essayist, the poet, the creative protagonist.
Because I am happiest when I am producing something that is entirely mine. Something that speaks to our human condition. Something that celebrates our connections to animals and nature.
Something that amplifies the importance of raising your voice and sharing your truth ... even if the rest of the world has blown a gasket.
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