Recently, it seems, many of my devotional readings have mentioned having an open heart. When that happens, I understand it to mean God is speaking to me about that subject. It's something I need to ponder and study. So, what does it mean to me to have an open heart?
First of all, an open heart is generous. Open to others, compassionate, self-forgetful, unselfish. When my heart is open this way, I may be hurt -- generosity is not always repaid or appreciated.
Secondly, an open heart is vulnerable. It means being willing to share my struggles and failings. This is also a risk, because others may think less of me when they see me as I really am.
I have to admit I have trouble with these things. I don't share easily because -- well, I'm selfish. I want to be sure I have enough before I give to others. I also like to be in control. I don't want to admit that sometimes, I'm not! I don't like to ask for help, because that makes me weak. If I tell the truth, I don't even like to ask God to help me.
Some of these things may be nature, and others nurture. I'm an introvert, a private person. I was raised to take care of myself without complaint. However, much of it is just plain sin. I don't open my heart because I don't trust God.
So, this month, I'm praying for God to give me an open heart. Maybe this post is a start.
"I shall run the way of Your commandments, For You will enlarge my heart." Psalm 119:32
For more posts about trusting God see:
Never Satisfied
Trust God's Process
When Things are Unclear–Trust God
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