Yesterday I found out one of my blogging friends passed away after a long battle with depression. I wish I could've done something to help her. A couple weeks back I noticed her blogging patterns were off. She posted one day like normal and then she just disappeared. She no longer liked or commented on my posts either. A week went by, then another week. I was really getting worried. What if something happened to her? I decided to do a little poking around. I had her name and a general location so I started scouring the obituaries. Nothing...
For awhile I had a sense of false hope. Maybe she was in the hospital and couldn't update her blog. Maybe she got in a car accident. Maybe she was taking a break on the beach of some nice resort. Maybe she was sick with a fever. The nagging voice in my head said maybe she was dead. Nope, couldn't be that because I didn't find an obituary. Maybe, maybe, maybe...until one day I saw a post from her family with her obituary.
Did she know the last time she posted it would be her last? She never said good-bye.
It hurts. Even though we never met in person, I felt like she was a good friend. On a hard day, she often would write an encouraging comment. I just can't believe it. She was an inspiration to many, especially those struggling with mental health issues. Maybe some day I will go back and re-read some of the things she wrote but as of now I just can't. Good bye Ashley, you will be greatly missed.
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