Summer Evening Ramblings

By Brianna on July 25, 2024

I'm lounging in my corner of the couch drinking honey-steeped tea, and soaking up the glowing beauty of the evening.

Two more days.

Two more days before my packed bags are loaded into my boyfriend's car and I get driven to the airport for two and a half weeks of Bible School.

It's been a long day.

A day of doing almost nothing—and finding the nothing very tiring to do.

I'm still half sick—but thanks to the kind mother's doses of garlic and various rub on ointments—and to the goodness of God—I'm feeling a lot better then I expected I would.

I take another sip of tea and smile to myself over the surprise that I worked on while lounging on the couch today.

Smile at the sunshine sparking on the water.

Smile at the hopes and dreams swirling through my heart.

I feel like I'm finally glimpsing the flowers blooming in my life.

That I'm finally emerging from the chrysalis.

That life is changing—fast and big and at times terrifying—but that I'm going to come out a new person.

A better person.

Or rather… that the person I have changed into. The person that I have become, is finally ready to be seen by the world—finally willing to blossom.

Last year Bible School grew me in huge ways.

It changed me.

For good—but also forever.

That's the thing with some kinds of change—there's no going back to who you were before.

And I look forward with slight trepidation, but also great excitement to letting God work and change me this summer again.

I know He might ask things that I'm hardly ready to do.

I know He might convict, and cut, and creatively reshape my heart.

But I know it will be beautiful—and I'm excited to see what He has in store.

I'm still dreading the goodbyes.

(I mean seriously, does anyone enjoy saying goodbye??)

And my tired body screams it's protest that two intense weeks is two weeks too much.

But I know God has a purpose in this trip.