I had just laid down, barely closed my eyes when I had a vision last night. I saw a little red wagon, the old radio flyer kind. I never had one as a kid or adult. I then saw someone partly in the wagon, it was me. I had my right leg inside the wagon, bent and was sitting on the back of my right foot. My hands were on the handle in front of me steering the wagon. My left leg was outside the wagon. I was using it to move the wagon. I knew it was me, but it was me when I was about eleven years old.
I was having a blast. I had a big smile on my face and was moving the wagon pretty fast. I was laughing and enjoying every minute of it. I then noticed I was going faster than I could push with my leg. As I went, I saw things in front of me to the side. As I got up to it, I reached out grabbing the item then threw it over my shoulder. I didn't have to look I knew it landed behind me.
When the vision was over, I reached for my pen and notebook and wrote it down. As I did God blessed me with the meaning and it brought tears. You see it was around that time that I lost my innocence, it was stolen by an adult who had taken it. It was when I was molested.
The meaning of the red wagon vision was God showing me, healing what was still been inside me that I had no idea I was carrying. He was completely restoring me and healing me. As far as I knew I had forgiven those who did that to me and let go of it, but God knew something was still left inside me. In fact, He just said deep inside me there was "animosity." I had to look to find the meaning. I still held resentment (a negative emotional reaction to being mistreated) about it inside me.
The vision was so cool! I was having so much fun in that wagon. It was like I was a kid again. It brought tears and does even now writing about the vision. God knows everything. To completely, fully step into what He has for me He knew I needed to be fully healed. I was given back something that was taken from me, my innocence and it was an awesome thing to feel. The things I was throwing behind me were things God was removing, things of the past completely being healed inside me.
What's really cool about this is while typing He brought back a dream from last night where the word "Joy" was spoken to me and written out in front of me. The scars of the past has made me who I am today.
He can do the same for you! He is the God of restoration, healing and love. Give Him all that you are carrying, let it go, release it and receive the healing that He has for you.
"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds [healing their pain and comforting their sorrow]." (Psalm 147:3).
"Behold, I will bring to it health and healing, and I will heal them; and I will reveal to them an abundance of peace (prosperity, security, stability) and truth." (Jeremiah 33:6).
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