I've been out of commission for Taekwondo since mid-November, so the better part of two months. My knee is messed up and the whole diagnostic/repair process takes forever. I got bored waiting and finally went to class last week for two days, and then had to stop again because the knee flared up.
I go in for an MRI today and we'll see what it says. So for two months I've been trying rather lazily to find other things to do. I lift weights, and that's been about it. Been getting very out of shape as far as endurance and just feeling lazy. Not good.
And then yesterday it dawned on me to try boxing/shadowboxing. I hadn't used the BOB is about a year, for various reasons, mostly because I think I was just sick of the Taekwondo routine.
But just wailing on it, practicing a few boxing/ Muay Thai moves, that felt good. It got my heart up, and it doesn't impact my knee too much. I can do this.
I've been burnt out on Taekwondo ever since I got my third Dan belt. I feel very unmotivated about the poomsae, which I never really cared much about. That's probably why I'd forget them as soon as I passed the test. I liked the sparring, but the knee has been really bothering me and I don't have money for extra lessons.
But just hitting the BOB, that feels pretty good. Good enough that I found a cheap BOB to deliver to the Pensacola house, so I can have a fun workout when I'm there.
I don't know why it took me this long to figure out a workaround for the knee. I think I really was burnt out. The accelerated testing and studying has been stress I really don't need, and it takes away from the fun aspects. But just hitting something, that actually relieves stress, like kicking the BOB did back in the day.
And I need that physical release, something aggressive and violent to burn some energy and release stress and frustration. It calms me down, takes the edge off. It also gets my blood pumping and gives me energy throughout the day. Like now, when I had been feeling very lethargic, I have energy. I'm ready to face the pile of work with a good attitude and get things done.
Again, kicking might be on hold for a while. We'll see this week what the damage looks like, but I know there's something not right. This is a good compromise. I can only lift so much, and that doesn't really release, it just challenges my muscles. Which isn't bad, but it's too... stationary.
Maybe it can help turn my attitude around. I've been feeling really tired and unmotivated these past probably six months, maybe longer. Also been feeling really frustrated and low-key angry at everything. This could be a good therapy. That's how I used it during C*vid Hell, I need to remember why I started getting engaged in this in the first place. It's good for me.
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